Don’t get me wrong, one thing I know how to do is work hard!
I have an inner inner critic, slave driver, actually, who cracks the whip, and an inner voice that repeats the lessons learned in childhood: “You are not disciplined enough,” “You need to be more realistic,” and, “The way you want to do it (i.e., in your dreamy, happy, starry-eyed way) is not the right way to do it.” This inner slave driver pushes me to keep working even when I am tired, to elbow past discomfort, and to dot all my ‘i’s and cross all my ‘t’s’, if it is the last thing I do.
I’ve obeyed that inner slave driver my whole life, and I’m tired.
My soul refuses to work that way any more. Frankly, I’m happy that I am finally tired of doing things in a way that does not give me the joy I’m seeking.
My teacher, Shanta, once said that peace comes when you get too tired to keep fighting. I’ve reached that point, and I am glad. I am laying down arms, and opening the door to freedom.
Worst part is, I’ve lost the habit of freedom. I’ve forgotten how to do things in my naturally dreamy, happy, starry-eyed way.
I’m working on it. ‘Working’ – ugh! There it is again, the slave driver who only says one thing: work, work, and more work is the answer to everything.
Let’s change that. What can I say? OK, here it is:
I am re-learning how to be me. I am experimenting with a new inner voice, one that encourages, pampers, and supports me.
I am transforming my inner slave driver into an inner cheerleader. I am letting go ‘hard work,’ and rediscovering playful openness. Hoot hoot!
I am telling my inner little girl it is safe to come out and play again. She’s been waiting a long time to come out to play.
And I can’t wait to see where she leads me.
Do you have a similar story to tell? Have you ever released (or let go, fired or transformed) an inner critic?I’d love to hear from you. Share your stories in the comments section.
Reba Linker is a Life Coach and Author of Kindle Bestseller Follow the Yarn, and The Little Book of Manifesting Big! Click here to get your free copy.